God is Great, Beer is Good, and People are Crazy

Wow, I cannot believe 2012 is finally coming to end. If I think back to New Years Eve last year, I was completely clueless to everything that would happen in the upcoming year. I was getting ready to go out with my boyfriend. We were going to a party with some of his friends. I was blissfully ignorant to all the changes that would be coming my way. I'll try to do a quick (hopefully) recap of last year before getting my goals for this year out in the world.

Last February, I got back to school and was thrown right into recruitment. It was such a rewarding experience and I am so glad I decided to go through with it. In high school, joining a sorority was not something I had ever considered. I knew my dad had been in a frat, but he was also a soccer star at Penn State and that overshadowed his frat boy past a little bit. Anyway, I spent the first two weekends back at school flirting with all of Delaware's sorority girls. Now, I don't know abou you. but I had never actually flirted with a girl before. It is definitely interesting to see the recruitment process. I happened to get my bid from the sorority I had fallen in love with, and it was all downhill from there.

The next few weeks were filled with events helping our new pledge class bond with each other and with the older girls. It's amazing how girls you didn't even know a few weeks ago can become your second family. I also was lucky enough to become part of the best pham in aephi. My big and gbig have become two of my best friends, especially these past few months. I honestly can say I don't know what I would do without them.

In March, my relationship of two years was ended. While I never thought the day would actually come, I always had a tiny inkling in the back of my head that it would happen. It was very hard to get over, losing both my best friend and the only boy I had ever been in love with, but I would never trade the experience for anything. I realized I had grown a lot as a person, but I still had a lot of growing to do. I needed time on my own to learn more about myself and becoming a stronger, more confident individual (which I am still working on, every day).

A few days later was my birthday, and I was officially old enough to buy tobacco (oh yay). Nineteen is a funny birthday. It starts your last year as a teenager, which didn't hit me until very recently. Aside from that, nineteen is pretty boring.

This past summer, I got a job as a waitress at Ventura's Greenhouse in Margate. I absolutely love my job (though I don't always love having to go into work). I never saw myself as a waitress, but it is something I don't mind doing while I work towards a career, especially since I get to work on a beautiful beach.

So many things happened while I was home this summer, I can't even remember them all. I made some new friends (Hello, Surfer boy) and had falling outs with some of my oldest friends. I went to see Zac Brown Band with Jenn, and spent some time in Wildwood with Justine. Overall, this past summer was pretty great.

Then it was time to move into my new apartment about a week before classes started. I was so excited to finally have my own place! But I came to learn that living with other people wasn't always as easy as Lauren had made it for me last year. I will not go into detail about the living situation, but I will say I am glad to finally be out of it.

My classes this semester weren't too bad. I hate how stressed and anxious I was all semester because it really affected my grades. I took a pilates class with Morgan, which I fell in love with. Lissy and I discovered this awesome shake place. And my obsession with Chipotle only grew.

I ended up going home a lot this semester. Last year, I never got homesick so I didn't realize how lucky I was to have the home that I have. My mom has become my best friend. I honestly don't want to know how much of a mess I would be if I didn't have her (and my daddy) to come home to when I needed it. And Jimmy and I have finally become more like really good friends than fighting brother and sister. I've been so blessed with my amazing family.

This year, I've gained some of the best friends a girl could ask for. Some were from unlikely places. Some were friends I've had for ages. Some were only in my life for a few weeks, others are lifelong. Each and every single one of them (whether a Navy wife across the country, a sister in Trinidad, or girl from grade school) has impacted my life in a way greater than they will ever know. So I would like to take a minute to thank each and every person who reached out to me in any way. It means more to me than you can imagine.

And now, as I am getting ready to ring in the New Year, I'm contemplating the goals I have and how I want to grow. I want to keep my workout kick up, until it is no longer a kick, but a lifestyle (my brother and I are doing our first mud run next summer, I cannot wait!). I need to work on my confidence and being happy on my own. I need to work on being thankful, regardless of how tough the situation is that I am given, because God will never give me anything I cannot handle. I need to remember that I truly believe everything happens for a reason (even if the guy at the bar this weekend tried his best to convince me that isn't true). I need to realize everyone is put in my life to teach me a lesson, whether they become a permanent part of my life or not. I need to stop being selfish and start doing things to make others happy again (which is what truly brings me happiness). I need to stop planning and start living. My resolution is to start every day with a smile and say one positive thing to myself. Every. Single. Day. No matter what.

So here's to ringing the New Year, looking forward, not back, and remembering God is Great, Beer is Good, and People are Crazy.

xoxo
-B

Let It Go

Now playing: Let It Go by ZBB

 Well this past week, this week, and this upcoming week is probably going to be considered the second most stressful period of my life this far. I have 4 exams to study for and a case study to work on (a group project, might I add), aside from a bit of other added stress. I am really not looking forward to doing all of that but what choice do I have? Gotta keep moving forward.

This past weekend I went home. My brother and I planned on surprising my parents. Jimmy was a little slow on finding out my dad would be in the Poconos from Thursday to Sunday, but I ended up staying home until Monday so it was okay. I was super nervous my mom would be out when I got home and that it really wouldn't be a good surprise. But just my luck, she was pulling up as I was turning the corner. It took her a second to register I was in the driveway behind her and run out of the car. She was jumping around like a giddy teenage girl. I don't think I have ever been happier to be home than I was at that moment. We went to Jimmy's soccer game where I saw my favorite Mainland teacher/coach of all time. I also got to spend time with Jimmy's girlfriend at the game. She's awesome. They tied OC which isn't ideal, but is way better than a loss. Jimmy kicked some butt, I must admit. I spent a ton of time with my mom that weekend, watching Snow White and the Huntsman, shopping, and just relaxing. We even went to a jewelry party of one for her oldest friends. I also had breakfast/lunch with one of My oldest friends, Caroline. She is one of the few people I can act completely myself around, even if we haven't seen each other in ages.

This weekend also helped me realize how lucky I've been to be blessed with such amazing people in my life, whether constant or just popping in and out. I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for, and there are more than a few people for which I would do absolutely anything. I decided there were a few people I had had falling outs with that had always been there for me, and their friendship was worth more to me than being stubborn and not wanting to swallow my pride. And I couldn't be more happy I did. I'm back on good terms with two of my best, longest lasting friends.

Now Playing: The River by Garth Brooks

Well now I have some tests to study for, but hopefully I'll be back writing again soon!

xo
-B

It Just Takes Some Time, Little Girl You're in the Middle of the Ride

My last post was in July? That is ridiculous! So much has happened since then that I can't even remember it all. I finished up my summer working at the Greenhouse and moved into my new apartment at the end of August. I was so excited to be living with some of my favorite girls! I also was looking forward to having my own bedroom while being away at school, definitely a plus of this living arrangement. I chose to do my room with a nautical theme, one of my favorite. It's definitely a lot more grown up than my dorm was last year, but I guess that's what happens when you go away to school.

Our first week (or three) was spent living off of pasta. Now, I love to cook, and I'll make anything, but you don't realize how well stocked your house is until you move out and need something for a recipe and realize how little you have. Oops. Living with only salt and pepper for a week was quite interesting. I recently have taken up to using maybe a little bit too much garlic on things. I love the flavor, but realize than most people don't put garlic on everything they inhale. And by everything, I mean pasta and couscous so maybe it isn't that odd.

My roommates this year also actually enjoy going to the football games. I'm  not sure whether no one wanted to go last year, or I was always out of town, but last year I only made it to one football game. While I don't really follow the NFL, I LOVE going to football games, especially with people who get really into it. And so far, we've been doing pretty well.

For the first time ever, I dropped a class and am not taking close to max credits. It's weird to have time and be done all of my classes while the sun is still out. I guess I should be happy for a decently relaxing semester because it probably won't happen again (mainly because I am going to get bored).

I'm extremely excited for life as a sister of AEPhi this semester. We're finally back and really getting into things (my excitement today may also be caused by the new letters I bought this morning). So many exciting things are already starting to happen, I can't wait to see what the rest of the year holds. It is going to be quite weird being on the other side of things during recruitment, though. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am super pumped to get a little though! I'm in love with my big and gbig so I just want to add to the love.

One of my two best friends, Jenn, came to visit this weekend. I last saw her when she came down with her boyfriend, Zach, to spend some time in Atlantic City over the summer, but that feels like forever ago. We went to dinner at Chipotle with another usnagf, Amanda, at Chipotle, one of my all time favorite places to eat. After, we got all ready with my roommates and headed up to the towers to hang out with some other friends. One of my closest friends at Delaware found out some not-so-cool news and Jenn and I ended up heading back with her to sort things out. While it wasn't the super exciting night we had been planning, it was nice just to relax and hang out together. The next day we went to the football game, even with the threat of thunder storms. We had to evacuate at halftime, but we were already kicking Del State's butt, so we knew how the game was going to end. Sadly, after that, Jenn had to be on her way back to Annapolis. We had to say our goodbyes but knew we'd see each other again soon!

That night, we went out for one of my roommates' 20th birthday. First we went to Cucina Di Napoli for dinner. We kept ourselves quite entertained, even after the waiter refused to sing Happy Birthday (wtf? if hot girls are asking you to sing for them, you better do it!). Then we headed back to the apartment to get ready for that night. We overall had an amazing night, especially once they started putting on country music because they wanted the majority of people to leave.

So far, I really enjoy the majority of my classes this semester. I'm taking a theatre class which has nothing to do with my major, but definitely keeps me awake and entertained at 9:05am. My research methods professor is actually super cool and, while I'd rather not be learning about causal claims and the four big validities, I don't mind the class. Anatomy is going to be awesome. I was actually excited to study for our first exam which was on body planes and regions. This is the kind of stuff I actually find interesting and one of the main reasons I picked my major. It is the stuff I get, it just clicks for me. Sadly, our lab is a simulation, but maybe one day (if I change my plan for down the line), I'll actually get to do a lab with a cadaver. Anthropology is my fourth major class and the only one that bothers me. The professor goes off on tangents about his study of African Art that has nothing to do with what we are learning. But it does entertain me he reminds me of a white Bill Cosby. His ideas are also very biased, which I am not used to so far in college (I know, I know, college is kinda known for professors and their strong opinions, but I have been lucky so far). My last "class" is actually a gym class called "walking/jogging". I forced myself to sign up for this class so maybe I get into running. I am not good at self-motivating and figured I might as well run while getting credit for it. The girl who runs the class is a grad student studying health promotion. It's a field I never even thought about until she mentioned it, and now is something I might think about pursuing in grad school (me? grad school? what?!). Definitely something I need to look into.

This weekend, I'm also going to attempt to surprise two of the most important people in my lives, so hopefully I get around to blogging next week and y'all get to hear all about it!!!

xo
-B

Rain Is A Good Thing

The past few months I've had such trouble remembering to update my blog, in case you couldn't tell by the lack of posts. I've been working a ton (or so it seems) but I absolutely love my job at the Greenhouse! I never thought I would waitress, but I'm so glad I gave it a try. I've luckily been able to spend a lot of time with my family this summer, which is awesome since it scares me how quickly my life has been moving. Before I know it, I'll be out on my own! I really do miss them a ton at school and I'm so blessed to be able to get to hang out with them as much as I do. Recently, I've started going to the beach a lot, finally. It's not as if I live 7 minutes away or anything. I've realized I can sit home and hang around at the beach before work just as easily as I can do it at home. And I'll get a tan on the beach. Plus, it is really relaxing (aside from the occasional beach tagger run in). I have been missing school a ton though.

Last week, my best friend finally came down the shore! Justine was in Wildwood for her sister's dance competition. I FINALLY got to meet all of the amazing Ringers, after months of waiting and talking and what not. I am so so happy I got to spend so much time down there last week. Justine is from Long Island and we aren't the typical "friends since preschool" best friends. Justine and I met through a facebook group of girls who dated midshipman of the United States Naval Academy. We started talking last summer and eventually planned a trip, along with another girlfriend, Mersadi, to the Navy-Delaware football game for Labor Day Weekend last year. We've been inseparable ever since (well, maybe in distance, but we're in constant contact). While neither of us are with our former boyfriends anymore, we've decided the whole reason we dated mids was so we got to meet each other (along with a few other super amazing girlfriends and wives:). I honestly don't know what I would do without her. I'd probably have had a few melt downs and gone off the deep end by now. Our friendship is living proof that everything happens for a reason!

This week, my cousins from Philly are coming down so it will be another action packed week. I'm also in the midst of cleaning out and then redecorating my room, hopefully before I go back to school. I decided my room currently looks like a rainbow puked all over it. So not classy enough for a 19 year old "sophisticated college student"( I did re do it in maybe fourth grade, so that could explain it. I have a purple, green, blue, and orange wall, along with a pink boa over one window...). I'm thinking nautical themed, which is really my current style now; stripes, anchors, navy and cream coloring. I'm getting excited just thinking about it! The rest of the summer is going to definitely be a little crazy! There are so many people I want to visit and things I want to do, I'm not sure how I'll find the time! As for now, I'll just try to live in the moment and be happy my summer has been so amazing thus far!

xoxo
-B

It's a Smile, It's a Kiss, It's a Sip of Wine, It's Summertime

Well, my blogging still has yet to be up to par. This is partly due to the fact I am never on my laptop though I can't seem to stay off of my phone. I do love blogging and reflecting on my life but when I finally am busy and running around, I'm almost glad I don't have time to write.

Summer started and I was mostly sitting home bored. After a week, I finally started training for my new waitressing job at the Greenhouse. I couldn't have been more nervous. I've worked at a pizza place before but I knew a few of the people I was working with. Here, I was going in alone. But it hasn't been so bad (minus the lack of business lately due to the weather) and I'm quite happy to no longer be bored.

On Memorial Day, I went with my aunt, cousin, Katie, and parents to the Memorial Day parade my town always has. We met up with Jackie and her mom who I hadn't seen in forever. Apparently, I am now too old for the paraders to throw candy to, which was very upsetting ( I have a HUGE sweet tooth for those of you that don't know).  Then, Victoria had a Memorial Day party/BBQ/whatever that turned out quite interesting. I absolutely loved seeing all my dance friends again.

Thursday, I went with Jenn to see Zac Brown Band. We met up with Julia and her friend Shelley. ZBB was AMAZING!!!! I didmiss one of my all-time favorite covers by them to go to the bathroom. It was heart-breaking. But I had such an amazing time rocking out in my American flag tank with my wonderful friends.

This week was The Dance Place's annual recital. It was the last recital any of my close friends would dance in. Mary's mom bought all of last year's seniors tickets to watch the night our friends had solos. The following night, Mary and I helped back stage like we had looked forward to doing since we were little kids. It was crazy but so much fun. It made me truly realize how much I miss dancing and miss my home at The Dance Place (not gonna lie, I may have cried one, or more, times). It was the last recital for Miss Mary's youngest daughter which is also huge. The dances were amazing as always and the seniors all danced beautifully (though I am still pissed Michele didn't get Rachel's phenomenal woman costume for me). I can't wait to be back next year to help out with the recital again!

Now, I'm currently waiting for my neighbor to be ready so we can keep up the tradition of pre-prom pictures. The past two years, she has come over to take pictures with me before my proms, and now it is her turn. I am so excited for her! After that, I'll be going with Victoria and Mary to watch Michele and Kristina take pictures (and be in some, of course) before they head off to prom. Prom was my absolute favorite night ever and I'm extremely jealous of all the girls going!

I ain't here for a long time, I'm here for a good time.

Well, my blogging has definitely been slacking lately. I have so much to say and have no idea where to start!

I finally have finished my freshman year of college! It is ridiculous how quickly it went by. So much has happened in the last year, it's amazing. First, I was in a long distance relationship. While things haven't worked out, it was a blessing. I have learned how to be independent and okay on my own. I am more confident in myself than I used to be. I know exactly what I want in a significant other and will not settle for anything less (I am not saying in any way that I was shown what I do NOT want in a s.o, I actually was shown what I DO want in one). I learned communication is one of the most important things in any relationship, whether with an s.o, a friend, or even your mother. I was also blessed with some of the best friends a girl could ask for from this experience. And not even just one. I have found my best friend who I don't know what I would do without. I've become friends with some of the most amazing women I have ever known. I can't even believe to describe what amazing role models they are (and probably don't even realize it).

I have also joined a sorority. In high school, it was never something I had even considered. My mom was not in a sorority. My dad was a frat boy in college, but also played two varsity sports for Penn State, which we heard more about growing up. I was always an athlete and a dancer and figured at least one of those two would be my life in college. Once I saw my course load, I decided to ease into school and not jump for the Women's Track and Field team. I took a few open dance classes but did not feel super comfortable with that particular company. By the end of the semester, I felt as though I wasn't getting the most out of college. I had a few friends, but no one I was super close with. I was bored a majority of the time. I did not come home for winter break super excited to go back. My roommate and I decided we were going to sign up for recruitment. When I got back to school for the spring semester, we got into recruitment that very first weekend. It was long and tiring and I got sick from it, but it was one of the most amazing experiences in my life. I ended up in the most perfect house for me, Alpha Epsilon Phi. It's amazing. I love every single one of my sisters. Pledging took up a good portion of this semester, but now I miss it more than anything. I definitely know why we are considered one of the closest, if not the closest sorority on campus. It changed my school experience. I already miss my amazing sisters and the wonderful friends I've been given (and I've been home for two days).

On a less upbeat note, a few weeks ago, my uncle passed away. He had been battling brain cancer for a year and kicking it's ass the whole time. While it is still unreal to me, I will always be blessed with the memory of such an amazing man. Now, I am a Philly girl and wouldn't have it any other way, but man, I have never seen a bigger Giants fan. He always had the game on, laughing and cheering. He had the biggest laugh and gave the best big bear hugs. He had a huge heart and was always welcoming everyone into his home. While his life was too short, he has blessed more people than even he knows, with his kind heart, loud laugh, and wonderful personality. He will always be our angel, watching over our every move <3

These next few weeks should be action-packed. This weekend, my aunt and cousin are coming down for memorial day. I start training for my new job as a waitress at Ventura's Greenhouse next Wednesday. Thursday I am going to Maryland to see Zac Brown Band with some amazing girls. I'll get to catch up with one of my best friends. The Dance Place recital is the following week and it will be my first as an alum. Crazy, right? I still can't believe it. Then my best friend in the whole world, Justine, is coming to Wildwood for a week for a dance competition!!! I CANNOT WAIT!

I have also taken a new approach to the dreaded deed: running. Yes, I know I was on the track team in high school. But, I ran a total of 100 meters for the hurdles and that was my longest event. To be short, I hate running. I don't find it fun and I don't think I'm good at it. And if I'm not good at it, I don't like it. But I am not in the shape I'm used to being in and I hate it. So, I've decided to take up running. I am going to run every day. Just run. Whether for 10 or 15 minutes, it doesn't matter. I just need to get out there and get in the habit. Usually I push myself too far too fast and come in miserable, feeling sick, and never wanting to run again. I'm going to just get used to getting going before I try to accomplish anything worth mentioning. I'm hoping this gets rid of my running dread. Today was day two of this new mindset and I took Cody with me. He was such a good boy and it felt more like walking the dog then going for a miserable run. He now may or may not be forced to go on daily runs with me. This can make up for the bonding I missed when my family first got him while I was at school (mind you, they got him in Landenberg which is very close to the University of Delaware and the didn't stop to let me met him. Not cool).

Well, now that was a mouthful. I'm hopefully going to start blogging semi-consistently again. I hadn't realized that other people actually read it until my aunt in Florida mentioned she hadn't been able to catch up on my life recently. I was flattered! But I am off to read a little before I get to bed.

xoxo
-B

Happy to see you, happy to say...

Lately, my life has been so hectic, I can't believe how long it has been since I've written a blog post. But being busy is most definitely better than being mopey and bored. I'm officially a sister of the Phi Chi chapter of Alpha Epsilon Phi. I can honestly say I love my sisters more than anything and they have already completely changed my college experience. My pham is literally amazing. I've been getting closer and closer with them and I am in love with both my big and gbig.

Things have been a little different than I'm used to, but I think I'm finally having a typical college experience.  Not that college wasn't fun or normal before, but things are a little different now and I'm not complaining. I am not used to being this ridiculously busy. But I love it. Minus having trouble keeping in touch with some of my best friends, I'd much rather be busy. I'm definitely expanding my horizons and getting to know quite a few new people. I love it.

Last Friday, my mommy came to visit! It was the night of airband. Airband is a greek event at Delaware where all of the sororities and fraternities have a competition similar to America's Best Dance Crew. While AEPhi didn't win, I could not have had more fun. I got to know a ton of my sisters a bit better and love them all. In typical AEPhi fashion, "They're the shit."

I have 8 days left of classes before reading day and then three days of exams. After that, It's SUMMER!!!! I'll start woking at a restaurant on the beach and I'll be going to Maryland to see Zac Brown Band. I cannot wait!!!! And right after that, Justine is coming to Wildwood with her family for her sister's dance competition. Just for a little background, Justine is my best friend. But we aren't typical friends. We've hung out for a total of two weekends. We met through a group for USNA girlfriends. Through a torturous summer away from our dearly beloved boys, trips, transfers, break ups, and more, she's become one of the most amazing friends a girl could ask for. The fact she is coming down for almost a whole week makes me beyond happy. I don't know what I'd do without this girl <3

I'm also hoping to get back into shape this summer. My health and fitness has not quite been up to par. I can give you all the excuses you want, but there is no reason I'm not working out every day or making healthy choices. My main goal this summer (aside from making money and getting tan) is to get back to where I am comfortable and happy with how I feel and look. This DOES NOT mean I want to diet or am trying to lose weight. This means I feel like a blob. My body does not like what I've been putting into it. I believe well being comes from all aspects of your life. And with my lifestyle right now, I do not feel happy and healthy as a whole. I want to run. I want to do yoga. I want to eat fruits and veggies. I want to feel healthy on the inside and out. That is my goal for the summer.

(Sidenote: I do try to eat healthy. I make conscious choices about what I eat, but dining hall food will never be healthy in my mind)

These past few weeks have led to many changes and much thinking and reflecting. I've learned to be okay on my own, and that I am completely happy with change. Sometimes you need it. And sometimes, you need to step back and take a breath. Things aren't always going to go exactly how you want or plan. It's not possible. But everything happens for a reason. God's plan is much greater than anything any of us could ever imagine. "Everything will be okay in the end. If it isn't okay, it's not the end."

Hopefully, I can get back to blogging regularly! I miss writing out my thoughts and the crazy things that happen. But, for now, my homework is beckoning.

xoxo
-B

Faith, Hope, and Love.

As you can see, I'm starting to do a little updating with my blog. I'll probably play around with it a lot in the next few weeks, so if somethings seems off, it'll be fixed in the near future.

Now, regarding my little cryptic post from last week, I got the guts to do it. Yesterday, I got a tattoo. Now, anyone who knows me, my family, or my extended family, knows this is quite a big deal. My dad has always been against us doing anything to ourselves to mess with our "natural beauty" (okay, when I say "us" I mean me. Sorry, Jimmy, no natural beauty for you!). And as far as I am aware, no one on his side of my family has ever gotten one. My grandfather was extremely against him, so everyone always kept to those standards. Guess I'm the black sheep. I don't think he will mind since I'm sure he's looking down on me and knows why I got it and it's meaning. I'm surprised how little it hurt and how quickly it was done. The girl did think I was a little boring since it is small, plain, and only one color. But it is my little constant reminder that everything is in God's hands, and to remember my favorite Bible verse: "And these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." So, say what you will, I love it and all I care about is the personal meaning.

And many of you know, this week has been a little crazy for me. A lot of stuff has been going on, nothing I would change for an instant. It has brought me closer to my old friends and even given me a few new ones. Two specifically have really helped me through this week. I can't believe how much they have put up with and still manage to talk to me. Friend number one has managed to keep a smile on my face and a positive attitude. Plus, they are one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Friend two has managed to keep me occupied and gave me the advice "Live well." This person really gets my outlook on life, and it's really helpful to have someone who has simliar views (well, most of the time) as I do. I really want to thank them, and anyone else who has helped me out this week. It means more than any of you will ever know.

Now, unfortunately, I am getting ready to head back to school tomorrow. I'm excited to see quite a few people, but hate that I will be coming back home in just 4 days! But, I'd rather be coming home than not so that isn't too much of a bummer! Have a wonderful day!!

xoxo

Risky Business

I am not a risk taker. Nor do I ever do anything spontaneous. I am a very straight edged, by the book, everything planned out a month ahead of time at least kinda girl. But I am (hopefully) planning to do something out of the ordinary, just for me very soon. I don't know if it'll happen as soon as tomorrow or in a few days, but I'm hoping it works out. And if it's a mistake, well, I don't feel like I make too many huge mistakes on a daily basis so one won't kill me. I'm not giving any hints as to what it is yet, but feel free to guess! If/when it happens, I will, if you're lucky, write an awesome post about it!!


xoxo

Boys Will Be Boys

This weekend, I finally got to see Patrick after almost 2 months (we have been truly blessed in that last semester, we saw each other about every 3 weeks, so this was the longest we had gone during the school year). I drove down Friday after my calc exam and we hung out with Patrick's sponsor family after he made some delicious pizza for dinner. We hung around until it was time for Patrick to head back to the Academy. He had practice bright and early Saturday morning. He was done his 7am practice a  little earlier than normal. We went out to breakfast at the double T diner. It was delicious!! Well, I don't know how truly good it was, but they had cannolis which gave them extra bonus points. We headed back to his sponsors to hang around until his second practice. While Patrick was on the water, I hung out with Jenn. We went to Whole Foods to get a delicious lunch, then we headed back to DTA to eat. It got a little chilly so we ate inside on the yard. We had the intentions of going shopping but we ended up just sitting and talking and lost track of time. Patrick finished up and we went out to get delicious crepes from Sofis! After that, we watched the Lady Mids (?) beat Holy Cross in the Patriot League championship basketball game! They definitely are not the lady blue hens, but the game was fun. Jenn left after the game and we went to a house that one of Patrick's friends' parents rented for the crew team for the week. They had an amazing dinner set up and the house was gorgeous! Liam's mom was absolutely amazing and I thought it was adorable that Liam, his mom, and his dad all were wearing blue and white. They matched perfectly! (sorry Liam).

The highlight of my WHOLE trip was getting to spend time with some truly important people. My readers really mean a lot to me and I know I've kept these particular readers on the edge of their seats waiting for my next post. I thought I would dedicate a section of this post to these wonderful, upstanding young fellows.

Liam, Evan, Austin, Jack, Jordan, Patrick, Conor, and Danny

These fine young gentlemen make up with Freshman lightweight 1st boat. They enjoy long walks on the yard, erging, and reading blogs. Perrier is the beverage of choice for these lovely midshipman. They will graduate in 4 years from the United States Naval Academy and have some very big plans for the future (ask Austin, he has some very well thought out plans). I don't know where my blog would be today without these 7 readers. Thank you for reading and enlightening me to some lovely dinner conversation, boys!

With that said, I have one more picture to upload, thanks to Jack!

He's always looking out for me!

I have so much more to write about but I am exhausted!

Surprise, surprise!

This weekend was the second weekend of recruitment. Friday night, I found out the 5 sororities I would get to see this weekend. I was pretty happy with the ones I got asked back to, especially because it included a few of my favorites. Recruitment is amazing because I really do believe everything happens for a reason and I'll end up where I end up because that's where I'm truly meant to be.

Saturday morning I had to be up at 10 for recruitment because I had to be at Clayton hall at 10:45. I got a good morning text from Patrick at 7:45. I responded with "It's Saturday! I can sleep more!" he responded and I asked why It was time to wake up. I was told I should be up because he was awake. To that, I said "well I will text you back when my alarm goes off at 10". At 8:26, my phone rang "Come get the door." WHAT?!?!?!?! I ran out of my room and there was Patrick, standing at the door. I wanted to cry and scream and jump on him all at once (I did not end up crying though). He was heading home for the weekend to see his brother and sister for their birthday. His mom graciously took the longer way home and let him stop by:) I was the happiest person EVER! I wasn't expecting to see him for at least three more weeks! Being completely surprised was on my bucketlist. I am not the most awake person in the morning so I didn't think how weird it was for him to be texting me that early in the morning. After I jumped on him, his mom and friend came inside. His mom checked her email while his friend called his parents. I was just in utter shock. I couldn't stop hugging him and smiling that he was actually there. While we were still standing at the door, he handed me a little gold box I hadn't noticed. Inside, it had the most beautiful bracelet!

With the background, you can't really tell, but it's beaded pink, my favorite color! Our Valentine's day was a little different than most this year, because we both truly surprised each other, but I wouldn't change anything for the world!!! I am the luckiest girl out there!

Tomorrow, I will most likely be writing another post, so I will stop here! Can't wait to see what bid night brings!

A day to Celebrate Love

I've been slacking on my posts. I've just been sooo busy lately! It is crazy! This past weekend started recruitment. It has been a whirlwind and the most amazing experience. It continues this weekend and Friday we start with up to 5 houses. I've been more outgoing, more confident, and happier than I've been in awhile. Friday, I did get extremely sick from recruitment. My head, my nose, my throat, all were ready to explode. I slept ALL day yesterday. And that is not an exaggeration. I can't wait to write my blog post about bid night and where I end up!!

Last weekend, we also go our pictures!! Megan's computer happened to die on her right after our session. If you are ever in the Annapolis area (or wherever she gets moved next!), I definitely suggest megancable.com . You will not be disappointed.

Today happens to be Valentines day. It was spent in class, waiting for class, eating, waiting to eat, nothing fun. One of my good friend's boyfriend asked me to do him a huge favor. He asked me to hand deliver a Valentines day present to her. They both really needed this and I am so happy that I can help make someone else's day. (Oh, and my mommy is coming to visit me on Friday for Valentine's day:)

I also was a part of another little surprise. My boyfriend is the most amazing guy I have ever met. Patrick is my best friend. He will do absolutely anything for anyone. I have never met anyone who can make me nearly as happy, feel nearly as special, or that I can trust with anything at all. He is the absolutely perfect person for me. I am truly blessed to say he is my boyfriend. I can't imagine ever being with anyone else. So, I figured a little V-day present might be nice. Patrick tends to be the hardest person to get a present for because he honestly wants NOTHING (its nice but not when you're the kind of person who LOVES doing things for others). So, being a boy who loves to eat, I ordered food for him. His awesome roommate, Patterson, helped me carry out my little plan. And it was carried out flawlessly (as far as I know). And I have no reason to suspect Patrick had any idea. I love doing little things (or big things) to brighten up peoples' day. It's what I live for. I only wish I was more creative and able to do more things more often!

Finally, I want to give a shout out to my most loyal readers: Austin, Jordan, Liam, Conor, Danny, and all of you other boys who can't get enough of this blog. I wouldn't be anything without you. You guys are what makes me excited for my next blog post! So thank you for reading so religiously!

Time flies...when you're having fun?

A new semester is under way and I can't believe I'm already in my second semester of college!! It's crazy. The past few weeks I've spent at home have been pretty boring. I love my family but no one else was around so I watched way too much tv and spent way too much time on facebook. The past week, I really got into a funk. I had/have no energy. It is the most unbelievable feeling to go to the store and once you get to the door, to be too exhausted to actually shop. My mom is an iron deficient anemic so there is a chance that is also my problem. I've been so wiped that I've had trouble keeping conversations with people that are normally so easy to talk to. I feel terrible barely talking but I can't even think of things to say. I hate one and two word answers more than anything, and recently I've found myself guilty of this. At least having to get ready back to go back to school gave me something to do. Of course, I waited until last minute. Shopping and packing all took place Saturday. We were supposed to leave at twelve to be back in Delaware by two, but we didn't end up leaving until two (oops). I dropped my car off and went out to dinner with my parents after we picked up my books. Then I got all moved in and finally got to see some of my friends.

I'm going to be honest,  I am homesick. As bored as I was at home, I love my family. I miss my dad. I miss my brother. I miss my dad. I miss my dog. But most of all, I miss my mom. Even if we didn't always get along perfectly, she's my mommy. I love her more than anything and she is ALWAYS there for me. This break, I think she's finally come to terms with my long term plans for my life. Pretty much, we both realized that after college, chances are I won't be coming back home. That means any time spent at home becomes even more pressure than it was before. Anyone who has come to this realization knows what a big thing it is. Yes, I get long breaks and come home for summer, but more than half of the year, I'm not home. I don't get to see her, hear her voice, eat her cooking, go shopping together, anything. Yes, I can call her, but when you're used to always having your mom, for 18 years of your life, this is huge. And it is a lot to take in.

But, one thing that is going to change my college experience (hopefully for the better) is recruitment. This weekend kicks off panhellenic recruitment and I could not be more excited. Anyone who knows me well knows that while I do like college, I am not quite "having a blast". I have a few friends but not enough that I really feel close with and barely any that I trust. Having amazing friends is something that has always been important to me. And see, here's the big thing. I'm in a relationship. Not the typical "I'm with my boyfriend every minute of the day" relationship. Not an "I see him a few times a week" or "I see him every weekend" relationship. I date a midshipman at the United States Naval Academy. I love my boyfriend and he means the world to me, but I cannot be one of those girls who makes her life revolve around her boyfriend. It is impossible in this kind of relationship. (Disclaimer: Not that I would do this if I dated someone else, I'm just trying to make a point) Having your best friend far away and with restrictions and not-so-great communication is not fun. I need a group of girls that I feel at home with. I am so so so excited to start this amazing experience and meet some wonderful women.

As everyone knows, last night was the super bowl. I am a Philadelphia girl at heart which obviously means the Eagles are my team. Since they didn't make it into the Superbowl, I had a dilemma. It is common knowledge that Eagles fans despise the Giants. Normally, I do. But this year was different. My uncle was diagnosed with brain cancer last year. He has three daughters and five grandchildren (though he is married to my mom's younger sister). This was a huge shock to my family. Recently, he hasn't been doing too well. He was unable to make it to his benefit two weekends ago. This may seem irrelevant to the Super Bowl, but what I'm getting as is that he is from north jersey. He's a giants fan. Die hard, one of the biggest fans you'll ever meet. Normally, we'd go to his house and you could feel the adrenaline rushing when a game is on. This game was huge for him. As scary as it is to say it, we don't know if he'll be around next year for the Super Bowl (or if his g-men will be in it). To have his favorite team win the Super Bowl made me so happy. I can't imagine how excited he was and I only hope he was able to see the game. He's an amazing guy and I pray he pulls through this.

You are 16, going on 17.

Okay, while the title may seem irrelevant to the post, I'm not crazy. Just wait a bit.

This weekend was awesome. It was a much needed break to my still-going-on winter break lounging around my house being lazy. Friday, I started my trip with a ride to my cousin's house. She lives in Joppatowne, Maryland with her husband and three girls. They are absolutely amazing!!! We made cool bracelets, ate chinese, made rice crispy treats, and a ton of other things. It was a blast to finally visit them at home. And I just have to say, her youngest, Lily, is absolutely hysterical.

Saturday, I woke up to (unexpected by me) snow. Madison came in the room saying there was a ton of snow and it wasn't stopping. I got so worried! I was supposed to be in Annapolis by 10 and how could I drive?! It turned out that it wasn't so bad outside and it wasn't snowing anymore. It was actually pretty. After an entertaining breakfast (Lily wanted all of the grapes but would stick them in her mouth and then give them to the dog), we went out to start my car. Turns out, quite a bit of snow had fallen and we needed to clean it off. Their neighbor must've thought we looked a little helpless and he offered his ice scraper to us. Upon it's return, he suggested I invest in one since it tends to snow around there. Sorry bud, I don't live there and didn't think it was going to snow that much. I said I'd look into one on my trip which he shot down saying everyone was going to be out buying them. Thanks, bro. Then I was off! The trip to Annapolis was much easier than expected, though I didn't arrive until 11. I picked Patrick up and we waited by Starbuck's to meet a friend. After Starbuck's, we went to whole foods and got some food for me for later. Yum!!! Then we went to P.F. Chang's for lunch. It was great! Our waiter was super talkative, it was funny. Then we headed over to Patrick's sponsor's to relax. We watched Off Their Rockers and some other Betty White stuff and talked to his sponsor parents. They crack me up. It was time to head back to the Academy. I always hate that part, but it's not nearly as bad when you know you'll be back tomorrow. After a quick goodbye, Patrick left with his shit ton of stuff from home, and I was on my way to the lovely Michelle's house. First of all, let me say, she has the most ADORABLE dogs. I am in love!! We stayed up talking a bit later than I should have but it was definitely worth it.

Sunday, I woke up at 6:30 to do my hair and makeup and get dressed for pictures!! After going to bed at 1, I was exhausted. I left a bit earlier than necessary, not accounting for the fact most normal people are asleep at that time on Sundays. I found a great parking spot right by gate 1 and even managed to park there for longer than 2 hours, lucky me. I met Patrick on my favorite walkway, that happens to be musical (not really, I just think it sounds funny which Patrick finds entertaining). We walked over to Bancroft and were met almost immediately by the lovely Megan Rossovskij ( megancable.com ). We had an absolute blast during our photo session! It was freezing but she still managed to deal with our silliness (I hope we didn't scare her off). At one point, I suggested going on these awesome benches and doing the whole Sound of Music "You are 16, going on 17" bench dancing while holding hands picture, but it was shot down. It did get Megan to sing a bit for us, though. Okay, maybe only a line or two, but still. The few pictures I've seen so far were amazing and now I'm anxiously awaiting the rest! She was awesome to work with, and we definitely would love to do another session when we get the chance (in the spring, perhaps?). After our two hours with Megan were up, who is hilarious by the way, we were a bit hungry. She suggested, well demanded, we try Sofi's crepes ASAP. So we said our goodbyes, I ran to my car to change, and ordered some crepes for our brunch. We ate in Dalghren and were awkwardly quiet because some football player was having an interview behind us. The quietness made it even more awkward! But, we enjoyed our crepes and it was nice to just relax. Then we headed over to mass in a part of the chapel I had never seen before. It was just as beautiful as the main part! We sat there and froze, even though we were inside with our coats on. Bad circulation is not something I would suggest having while spending time in 25 degree weather. After mass, it was time to go, unfortunately. But the weekend had been more than a success. It was absolutely perfect! And I'm really thankful Patrick decided to put up with my picture idea and have fun with it. He's pretty awesome. The drive home was crazy because I was exhausted. But, I finally made it safe and sound.

Now, I'm waiting to see if Megan lets us sneak a peek at any more pictures. I'm in love already after only 2 pictures! I can't wait for a blogpost dedicated to our photo session!

photography

So, I have always been beyond amazed looking at beautiful photographs, and a bit jealous mine don't turn out like that. I've recently started following a blog, that isn't a photography blog, but the girl is so incredibly talented in capturing magic in her pictures. Some people would say photography isn't that hard, that anyone can do it, but let me tell you, if it were me taking those pictures, you wouldn't even be able to tell it was at the same place!!

It's come up to me a few times recently how much I love pictures and that if mine turned out a but better, that I wouldn't be able to put my camera down (mind you, my iphone takes better pictures than my actual camera, so a nicer camera is being added to my wishlist for when I'm no longer broke). I'm thinking maybe this summer, or in the next few years at school, I will look into taking a photography class. If anyone who happens to see this has any info on cameras, classes, etc, I'd LOVE any input.

Well, this post was short, but I just finished a long "catch up" one. Just needed to get it out there that my new hobby may just turn out to be photography!

Winter break - part 2

Well, I have finally got around to blogging after procrastinating for weeks. The sad thing is, I forget a ton of things I wanted to talk about. Here is a list of a few things Patrick and I did before he went back to school:

• Bowling - this was a fail. We wanted to go on a double date with our friends, Nick and Jess, but we got to the bowling alley and there was a 2 hour wait. According to the boys, it was welfare night. What great catches we have.
• New Years Eve Day - I went with my mom to visit my aunt in Toms River. All of her daughters and their kids were there so it was awesome! She is my mom's younger sister but she has 5 grandchildren, 3 girls and 2 boys. They are some of the cutest kids I've ever seen!
• New Years Eve - Patrick and I went to a party with some of his old crew friends. They all have really nice girlfriends, but I wasn't really close with any of them. BUT, then one of my DP girls walked in!!! It was the best moment of that night. We ended up getting another of our friends to come, it was awesome. I ended up going back later that night to pick Kristina and Michele up, so we had a slumber party:)
• Friendly's - After New Years, we met up with some of Michele's friends at Friendly's. Even though I'm not close with most of these girls (except Liz) I love hanging out with them. They are HILARIOUS!
• John Campbell's - If you grew up in Somers Point, that night was epic. This is the kid (I feel bad saying this) that no one was friends with nor did they want to talk to. He was kinda annoying and not cute enough for it to be overlooked. This was a HUGE deal. And I swear, my whole entire grade was at this kid's house.
• Sherlock Holmes - Patrick, his brother, Matthew, and I went to see the new Sherlock Holmes. It was awesome! There was one part that bothered me, but I don't want to give anything away.

Hmm..I'm sure I'm forgetting a ton of fun things, but I'll leave it at that.

That Friday, I drove with Julie to take Patrick back to the Academy. Of all the drives back to the Academy, this was one of my least favorite. But, we had a wonderful walk before he had to go and it was nice just to do something a little relaxing.

The next day, I went to the beach with Tori, one of my good friends since junior high. The beach is one of the few places that always makes me happy, no matter who I am with. There were a ton of dogs and it was gorgeous out! We had fun taking pictures of the water, sun, and, of course, ourselves. Later that night, I went to Starbucks with Jess. We definitely had a ton of catching up to do. She's one of the people I miss most at school.

That Wednesday, I went up to Monmouth with Jess to look at houses for her to live in next year with a few of her friends. I had never been to Monmouth and it's a lot prettier that I thought! Annie was filmed in one f the halls. It's crazy. And the school is right by the beach. It's gorgeous! I can't wait until I can finally visit her.

Thursday, I went with my dad to my grandmother's house. It was weird being back for the first time after she passed away. It still looks the same as the last time I'd been there. And her kids have been working on cleaning it out for months!! I found so much cool stuff though. I found some pearls, tennis bracelets, cross necklaces, and a gorgeous ring I was able to take home. I also found some World War I medals that I thought were crazy cool. My favorite thing that I found that day was a box of letters to my grandmother from my grandfather while he was in the Army during WWII. I've read a few and it's amazing to see some similarities between my grandparents and Patrick and me. 

Friday, I took  my first pilates class! It was with reformer machines and beyond awesome! It was just Ruthie, this fabulous instructor, Julie, Kara, and me. I had a wonderfl time, especially since I hadn't seen them in a few days.

Saturday, I went over Patrick's house to make dinner with Kara. We made crab topped portobello mushrooms, cous cous stuffed peppers, mini salads, and crepes. Everything came out perfectly! Then we headed downstairs to watch Miss America. If nothing else, I can say I always have a fun time with those Dods' girls.

Sunday, I went to church with my family and we went out to lunch at the diner. After that, I went shopping for my I-ball dress! And I had to make a tough decision between two absolutely gorgeous dresses.

Monday, I went to see Beauty and the Beast in 3D with Michele and Kristina. I LOVED it. In case you didn't know, it is my all time favorite Disney movie, and I will sing along the whole time. My I-ball dress happens to look a bit like Belle's dress. After that, I went back and visited the Dance Place. It really reminded me how much I miss dancing, and how happy I've been since last recital. I NEED to find a way to get back to dancing at school. I did finally remember to get my recital DVD from last year (and from 2008?). So I spent my night watching it last nigh. It was awesome.

Today, I spent ALL day baking for Patrick this weekend. I love baking and find it kind of therapeutic but addicting. I found out some more information about a possible addition to our family. And I called my cousin to find out a few more details about staying at her house this weekend.

Whew! I think I'm finally all caught up! This weekend should hold a few more stories that I can't wait to share! I'll be visiting my cousin and then heading down to Annapolis! I'll keep you posted!

A Christmas Story - Minus Pictures! Part 1

Well, I have been trying to make a post for at least 2 weeks! I've wanted to since before Christmas, but didn't want to give away anyone's presents! And now, I have been trouble uploading pictures (well, finding them) from iPhoto. So, this post will be boring because of the lack of pictures. So, I will start back at the beginning...

December 16, I ventured back to Delaware to take my last final, ex sci. I finished within 45 minutes and was on my way back home! IT WAS WINTER BREAK!!!! The next day, my wonderful boyfriend took his final exam and made his way home! I did not get to see him, so finally on Sunday, we were reunited! (on a side note, his sister came home early, similarly to how I came home between exams, Yay Kara!!!!) The whole Dods clan was once again together!

That Thursday, Jason, Patrick and I were off to Delaware/PA to help prepare for Willia (no, that's not how it is spelled, but how it is pronounced. I've never seen the spelling well enough to remember it). We went by way of Wegman's and "rower friend I do not know's" household. Patrick happened to forget his uniform for the All Academies Ball and this lovely gentleman picked it up for him! Jason spoiled us by letting us get food at Wegman's. Next stop: Hockhessin, DE, home of the Thurrell family, and some mean pierogie making parties. There were plenty of hands willing to help, so I went with the lovely Aunt Amy back to her house to prepare for the dinner the next night. I absolutely love spending time with Aunt Amy!!!! And to be honest, I'm kinda happy she isn't moving!! That means she might possibly want to steal me away from school at some point again:) Anyway, the boys ended up coming back with her three kids. If I remember correctly, a ton of video games were being played while I made food trays for the next day and Aunt Amy made fried rice. The video games continued until the kids went to bed. Then, we watched our new favorite show "The Big Bang Theory". The next day, Patrick, Jason, and Uncle Bob went for a run. Right when they got back, Aunt Amy and I left with the kids for kickboxing! It was killer, but I loved it! We came back and worked on final prep for dinner. Then, the rest of Patrick's family arrived at his grandparent's house, so back we went. After presents, we went back to Amy's. Almost time for dinner! Polish Christmas Eve dinner has become one of my favorite traditions!! I am so happy to have been included!

Saturday, I don't really remember what I did that day, but that night was my family's traditional Christmas Eve party. After a lovely church service (Christmas Eve service is my favorite!), we went back to my house to wait for our guests. Along with my family, two of our neighborhood families, along with my mom's good friend and her family, have always came. This year, our one neighborhood family couldn't come, but the Dods' came for the second year!! It was awesome.

Christmas day, we woke up and had an amazing time opening presents together. I have come to realize, my favorite part of Christmas is the time leading up to it, along with the look on someone's face when they open something you gave them, and they absolutely love it. After presents, we went up to my Uncle Rob's house to visit my family. I love seeing everyone! We went home and I headed over to Patrick's house. His mom offered to have their priest over for dinner after his last mass. He is quite the funny guy! definitely not what I would expect.

Monday, it was the day of our first All Academies Ball! Man, was I excited!! My lovely friend, Victoria, offered to do my hair! She also lent me a ton of accessories for that night. It looked great! I did my makeup, got dressed, and headed over to Patrick's with my mom for pictures. By this point, he really was wondering what he had gotten himself into. He didn't have a clasp he needed for his uniform and his mom had been running around all morning looking for something that would work. He was not  a happy camper. We took a few pictures and were on our way! Boy, was he in for a surprise. For some reason, he happened to disregard all of the stories and info I told him about this ball. He turned ghost white as soon as he saw all of the high ranking officers in the reception room. I was in trouble! The silly boy didn't pay attention to anything I said, and therefore was freaking out about his uniform! Well, eventually he calmed down and we actually had a blast!! He will even admit it! We got to sit with June and Foster,  a lovely couple we kinda sorta knew because June goes to UDel! Foster goes to West Point, but it was great to sit together. We also sat with this awesome firstie's family. Well, we didn't talk much to the kids, but the parents were great!!! They were stationed in Guam when they had their first son! How cool!? But, Patrick's favorite part of the night had to be that he actually made money! For some reason, he was told we were all paid up before he even sent a check! He was worried about that and was ready to pay when we got there. Well, we checked in and no one said a thing! So we were even. But, every mid/cadet got a visa giftcard, Score!!!! So, the night wasn't too bad for Patrick anyway! We still aren't sure how that worked out, but if someone out there paid for us, thank you so much!! It's the little things like that that can make your day!

Okay, so I haven't even come close to finishing Patrick's winter break/the first half of my winter break. But this post is way long and I am getting tired, so I will try to finish up with a second post in the next few days!!!